Delving deep

My thesis is on climate change and the deeper I delve into it, the more despair I feel. I didn't realise that humankind had known that we were causing global warming a few decades before I was even born. And the international community has not achieved much in mitigating climate change. I now experience what Naomi Klein described in her book This Changes Everything as "pre-loss":

"At some point about seven years ago, I realized that I had become so convinced that we were headed toward a grim ecological collapse that I was losing my capacity to enjoy my time in nature. The more beautiful and striking the experience, the more I found myself grieving its inevitable loss — like someone unable to fall in love because she can't stop imagining the inevitable heartbreak.